Bookmark: From acting to self-discovery..

Ajinkya Kulkarni

An “ugly” girl who didn’t know who she was.. When she reached adulthood, she forgot her suicidal thoughts when she got a role in a drama.. She became an award-winning actress. “Oscar”! This is his story…

A poor eight-year-old girl. His character is cursed to live in poverty at home for eighteen years. She is black. Father Attal Darude. After getting drunk, they beat her mother so much that each time during these fights, her mother was seriously injured. This terrible civil war had the same effect on this young soul. She began to live under the mental pressure of this fear day and night. She wasn’t that old to tell anyone exactly what had happened to her. Of course, no one had anything to do with him. This domestic dispute became so bad that her father attacked her mother with a spiked glass and when the glass entered under her mother’s eye, a spurt of blood spurted out and fell on the girl. She did not dare to fall into this quarrel of her parents. She felt so much fear that Bas. But when Chilkandi flew over her body, her fear had reached fever pitch and she could only utter one word in a loud cry: “Stop! It is done..”

It only happened at home. Was she safe at school outside of home? So not at all. She felt as much fear at home – in fact much more – than at school. Why was she so scared? Because most of the students at her school were white. They used to tease her in the face saying “you fucking nigger”. With the last hour of school out, her heart rate increased. Because a group of children outside the school were following her. These boys loved beating her. Half the gang was black. Even those boys used to tease her by calling her a “nigger.” Why, his character was a bit darker than those boys!

..who knew this girl who grew up in such a scary environment was going to excel in acting? Will the golden doll of the Tony Award and the Oscar in the field of theater put you in the pocket? That actress is Viola Davis! His autobiography “Finding Me” was published recently.

Racism is not new to American soil. It has a long history in this country, from the Civil War of 1861-1865 to the police killing of George Floyd, a black man. There is a general perception that over time these undesirable discriminatory practices will come to an end. As we move towards modernity, these things may seem to be receding. But, after reading such books, our perception begins to be shocked. One is extreme poverty at home; Viola spent her childhood in Central Falls, Rhode Island. In the northern United States, near the Atlantic (but still largely connected to the mainland despite the “island” in the name), it receives heavy snowfall. Therefore, the tap water froze in the winter. Even the chimney system to keep the house warm is unaffordable due to poverty, so not only Viola’s house, but many families in the settlement spend their days in freezing cold. This girl hasn’t bathed for eight days. It was far from the basics of taking a bath, washing clothes after a certain amount of time. Viola, a third-grade student, used to wet her bed at night because of the creepy atmosphere outside. This habit was broken only at the age of fifteen. Even at school, classmates and teachers used to squeeze their noses when they approached her. “You are very ugly,” they said. Once she misbehaved in class, no policeman from the school came to see her, no midwife came to pick her up. She also had to sit in the urinal until after school. This insult was very dear to him. Therefore, his trust was lost forever.

She couldn’t find a way out of this shattered confidence, the atmosphere of fear. Today we can ask questions like bathing and washing clothes. But if there is no one to tell all this, who will wait? Where there was an illusion of having two full meals, washing the clothes and washing the body with soap would have been a luxury. She used to mumble to herself… ‘Who am I? Who is my beacon of hope? If I’m unwanted for everyone, where is my sunshine that I can fit into instead of suffocating this world? It was around this time that she began to deal with the thought of suicide. She was 14 at that time. But in the meantime, a girl playing a character in a school play was sick, and her role went to Viola. At the end of the play, all these children came back on stage and lined up, and the whole audience applauded. During this ‘reminder’, she thought that ‘acting’ was an area where no one wanted me. .

Viola’s life is like a war movie. Just like in a war movie, the hero is bloody at the end, he saw the corpses of soldiers lying around him and due to the mental shock, he cannot go back to his lover like before due to the immense loss. became a successful actress, she cannot regain the happiness she missed in life. Viola’s father, Dan, worked on a racehorse farm. Horse owners treated them almost like slaves. Getting a lot of work done by them all day. The job was stressful for Dan. The owner was very angry, but he had no choice but to do the job. Viola’s parents were people who never found their dreams, hopes and aspirations. Neither of them ever found a world where they could know peace or happiness. Dan would sometimes be away from home for two or three months, disappearing somewhere. During this time, they had no address, but they kept coming back. Viola belatedly understood the meaning of their actions. Staying away from home was, he said, an answer to the questions he faced in life.

Viola and her younger sister Deloris suffered greatly from starvation and the humiliation that accompanied it. The shopkeepers in the square threw packets of food at them and said, “Eat, you’re dead!” But Mrs. Prosser, the headmistress of Viola’s school, said to her one day, “Viola, I’m sorry about your situation, but don’t let that get you down.” Saying this, he passed his hand over the cheek of this fourteen-year-old Viola. For Viola, it was the first contact of love. We deserve someone’s love. We also have value. There’s someone I don’t find ugly. She decided to train as an actress based on her theater experience in school. She joined the Ron Stevenson Academy. Another person who saw Viola’s inner beauty was Ron. In this acting training, Viola began to open up a bit. Viola felt safe on the stage of the play.

Viola doesn’t want to talk too much about her first boyfriend. She doesn’t want to remember her bad experiences with him. Viola says, “The news, the interviews that we see in the media about artists from comfortable and stable (privileged) families are like Okari in a way. We accept it as the truth of these people. In 2001, Viola won the prestigious Tony Award for her role in the play King Hedley Two, having spent the previous eight years working in New York’s “Broadway” plays – that is, plays mainstream Americans. She also started getting roles in movies. Then she was nominated for an Oscar and a BAFTA (in Great Britain) for the 2011 film The Help. At the time, both awards were a fluke, but Viola won both awards for “Fences” in 2016!

It is commonly believed that if an actor gets such an award, he will get better roles in the future. However, this is not the case with Viola. At both of these awards and in other interviews, she spoke out about the treatment of black artists. Because of this, she was less able to find work. Although she received three Oscar nominations or outright awards in ten years, she never got a chance to play a leading female role.

Viola was angry with her father, but once her agent Mark told her – “But you are what you are today because of them.” During the acting test, he was told that you don’t think you can do much. She also admitted that she wasn’t very beautiful, but some producers even went so far as to suggest that she didn’t look feminine. Despite all these bitter experiences, says Viola, my strength comes from forgiving others. “I know what it’s like to starve a little girl. I know what it’s like to be poor at home, what it’s like to have an alcoholic father at home. I also know what all these things do to a little girl’s mind. Being able to serve people through my game will be my greatest gift to people.

“To find me”

Author: Viola Davis

Publisher: Coronet/Harper One

Pages: 304; Price: Rs.736

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